Journal: Update on health stuffs…

Eluding Atrophy

This past month has been difficult. Not only health wise but mental health wise. Due to the stresses of waiting for results, my anxiety has been skyrocketing, even though my heart meds totally calm me compared to how my anxiety used to be.  And my depression has reached some rather really low points as well. While in those vast abysses Ive learned to just sort of ride the wave, so to speak, until I came out of the other side and kept going.  But of course, I wouldn’t recommend another doing such a thing without going to a mental health professional and discussing what their options are. So don’t take what I say as an example to follow. I do have a shrink I discuss things with, and while Im not on meds at the moment, it might be possible that I need them in the future.

The day after…

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Journal: Health issues, hospital stay, blood test results. Anxiety.

Eluding Atrophy

I had planned to write so much over the summer, alas, that didn’t happen like I wanted. Instead, I have been consumed with fears about my health.  A hospital stay, blood tests, and waiting have taken up all of my head space. So this is about that. A personal post.

For the past few months, regardless of any physical activity I have tried to keep on a regular schedule, I have been more exhausted and in more pain. Mentally, I feel fine. Which is a plus. But physically, it is like no matter what I do, everything hurts and I always feel sick in some way.  So mid summer one day, I nearly fainted. I chalked it up to not eating that day. But then the next day, it happened three times. So I decided to go to the hospital. As I was standing up to go tell my brother…

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My thoughts on “13 Reasons Why”.

Eluding Atrophy

The following was actually a Facebook status of mine, but I figured what the heck, copy paste that mofo, it works as a blog post as well. Since it’s my thoughts on a show about suicide I’ll add a possible Trigger Warning.  

So I finished 13 reasons why. (probably going to be spoilers but none really about the story itself, I’m mainly talking about the overall “message”.)
I get the premise of spreading the whole “let’s be nicer to each other.” However, I feel like it’s more emotional porn than anything else. As entertainment, it certainly fits that criteria, as in you watch sad movies to cry, comedies to laugh, and this show to basically feel all the damn feels. It is well made (for entertainment purposes, anyway), and it certainly throws you around violently in every direction as you watch the different stories. From the beginning it draws…

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