Evolution of Eve | I’m Autistic and Proud (poetry/prose)

By Eve Hinson (almost Reiland)

I’m Autistic and proud

Not afraid to talk about it outloud

And why would I fear sharing that I like me?

All of me, especially this neurodiverse brain of me?

I’m savant with creativity, alive with visual language,

forget the super highway — this brain is an information constellation,

technical ancestor, internet goddess, pattern finder and seeker

keyboard warrior and new media memory keeper.

I don’t give a fuck about sports or square root,

but let’s talk HTML, Social media, incredible hair and . . .

Hot damn, just not politics.

At least not until we find the concentric overlap

of neurotypical and autistic, and define

the shared spectrum of communication

Before we debate this kind of shit.

I’m Autistic and proud

Hate the mall, large crowds

Millions of emotions on way too many faces

That rudely jostle my mental spaces,

Senses shocked with neural zaps

until scattered lapse and thought connectivity

Smashed, dashed and whiplashed.

Days later, processing still micro-expressions of too-big eyes,

party smiles and a billion social patterns, unrecognized.

All memories branded with intricate dodge and burn

Processed until complete, archived for later

Until the need to be retrieved.

These images, first language recall, need English words

First I must translate to communicate,

And that’s if I can get this mouth and eyes

to synchronize with a timeout denied.

I’m Autistic and proud

Yes, this specific, divergent and never born-in-a-box mind

Comes complete with an executive-function slip,

sensory integration disorder chip,plus shitty memory stick,

annoying cognitive pause, that constantly sticks,

An mp3 glitch, max headroom twitch

Alerting others that On second look

Beneath this bitchin fashion

and fuschia blue pearl lipstick

my swag is quirky and a amazeballs different

I’m Autistic and proud

Not afraid to shout it out loud

And why should I fear being heard?

It’s absolutely OK for me to like me

To want to see people like me,

on covers of fashion magazines,

Hangin’ with amazing geeks

Gettin’ fleek with YouTubers

known about this Autisitc Beat

There’s nothing wrong with my glitter and glam

Dreamin’ of Divergent Fashion brands

This is my genetic-heritage

Displayed Loud and Brain-Proud

I like me

All of me — especially this neurodiverse brain of me.

I’m Autistic and proud

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